Monday, 13 October 2008

A big bad hair issue

My identity on my blog is well hidden, that's why I'm not afraid to admit that I am a self harmer. My life is stressful and confusing, as a result I use self harm as a way to cope, only 5 of my close friends know about this issue and I have only been doing it for about 5 months and it has become quite addictive.

The most obvious form of self harm is cutting, which I do but I hate getting fussed and stressed about covering the cuts and scars. Recently I have been pulling out big clumps of my hair, the proper word for this is Trichotillomania
( http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Trichotillomania ), which obviously isn't great for me especially because I'm trying to grow my hair long. Recently I have been doing it more and more. My hair is already quite split but because of me pulling my hair out I am breaking hairs and also I am loosing more hair than the average person would do daily.

I am not posting this for sympathy its just quite therapeutic to write stuff like this especially because self harm is a very private thing to me and sometimes I just feel like shouting it but I'm afraid of what people would think. I'm also posting this to let you know I have a lot of things on my mind at the moment that's why I haven't been working much on my blog.

When I get some spare time I should hopefully be updating my blog,


Sophie x x x x